for not blogging lately, as I have this BWO (Blog Without Obligation) lovely crow in the margin.
Yet, I feel I owe you an explanation. And above all, for my friends who have not received any email from me yet. Some have been long due. :( Some have been written and unsent, they're not even up to date.
I just don't have the stamina to blog, nor to write or whatever. My grandmother has been in the hospital for six weeks now, slowly dying, agonizing. And it's not over yet. I spend as much time as I can to help, to feed her, to talk to her, thank her, and above all make her feel how much she is loved, has been loved, and will always be loved.
Lately, things have been deteriorating and I realize that despite our being there, holding her hand and talking to her -sometimes may be to no avail- the way to death is a way that you can only take on your own. My grandma must be very lonely, and suffering a great deal. There's no place for us there. But we keep trying though.
Soon, I hope, Eugenia, almost 96, will be able to rejoin her Adolfus who died aged 74 -twenty-two years ago- in heaven (this is her belief, she's a Roman Catholic) and will be relieved from her pain.
I will finish this post with a word I hardly use, I'm doing it for my gran:
Amen
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I am so sorry to hear about your grandmother. May she find her peace and be reunited with her Adolfus when the time comes. Hugs to you during this difficult time!
Prayers to you and your grandmother.
Wishing you and your family strength and comfort, Lili!!! Please remember to take care of yourself as well!
Dear Lili,
My heart goes out to you and your wonderful grandmother.
Keep strong and know that you are in my heart and thoughts. Just hold her hand and talk to her. She will hear and very, very soon she will leave these earthly bonds behind and join her dear Adolfus. Then there will be no more pain for her and they will be full of joy and peace together.
love, Margaret
My thoughts go out to you and your family as you go through this painful time. (((HUGS)))
Sometimes, you just have to say "It's OK. Just go and be with ... We will all be fine." I told my uncle it was alright and he was gone within 12 hours. Sometimes they just need permission to let go and let God.
1000 pensées et bisous
You and your family will be in my thoughts. Try to find some time to take care of yourself in this difficult time.
Your journey is hard...but your Gran is so blessed to have you there...I pray she becomes pain free...and that you find peace!
Blessings to you. Dianntha
Lo siento muchísimo. Estas pérdidas son horribles. Besos y ánimo. Pilar
Oh Lili!!!! I'm SO sad to hear about your Granma :o( I just put myself in your shoes and it makes me feel like I can't breathe because I know there will be a time when my Gram will pass away and the pain will be unbearable. I'm here for you dear friend. ((((HUGS))))
Je pense à toi.
Bizzzzzzzzz
So very sorry to hear this Lili, Though your grandmother is going through a terrible time, I know that you and your family are a great blessing to her. Wishing you all love and peace.
je me joinds à toi dans tes prières ....
Il est toujours difficile de laisser partir ceux que l'on aime .... mais la douleur n'est pas une bonne façon de vivre ...
Fasse que ta grand mère retrouve son aimé dans la paix et la sérenite!
De tout couer avec toi ! bise
clob
During this difficult time for you all know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. Strength for you and peace and comfort for your Gran.
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